eighty degrees. been wearing sundresses for days. school ended two weeks ago and i pulled a 3.9, the highest GPA i’ve had since my freshman year of high school. all that hard work paid off, evidently.
but now it’s my last full week with the people i love. i’m remembering the summer after my senior year of high school –– how i became part of a tribe of eight or nine feral and joyous teenagers, and spent all my time lazing on friends’ floors and eating in all-night diners and kissing people i shouldn’t. it’s starting to feel like that again, except older and wiser. all week we’ve been lounging and drinking and wandering and cooking. we went out to a classy restaurant last night and sat on the patio under tiny strings of lights, and everyone’s faces looked grown-up and beautiful. at the end of the meal someone said “this would be a good moment for a meteor to hit the earth.” and everyone else agreed. the boy i love held my hand quietly. everyone was at perfect peace.
i’m the only one who isn’t graduating and i’m scared. sure, i’ll still have friends –– good ones, even –– but the people who defined this place for me are leaving. it’ll be a whole new landscape without them, and i’m afraid that new landscape will happen as a sinkhole when they leave next week.
I took a 7 week coast to coast road trip after being laid off from Boeing. I didn’t have a camper but realized that being able to pull off the road at a rest or truck stop was the way to go to make the trip affordable. With a few sheets of 1/2” plywood and misc. hardware this is what I came up with. The effort was well worth the time and materials.
this is pretty fucking perfect. i’d do this. except for that whole burning-gas thing.
finished my video. now i don’t know what to do with myself. my hands are restless. i feel like i’m supposed to be making something.
i want to spend the rest of the day doing exactly as i please, but what is that?
oh god, it’s dawn
today i have worked for more than twelve hours straight on my final project for physics. it is due in seven more hours. i need to have at least a 20min video, and right now we’re looking at 17:48.
compiling a summer reading list. get at me, tumblr. what’s not to be missed?
tea and hashbrowns, the midnight snack of champions.
Anonymous asked: i've been dealing with a lot of stress with finals too, your post really helped me with a rough time. it is nice to see i'm not the only one, though of course i'm not. i couldn't count the amount of emotional breakdowns this semester has given me with finals it's like ten-fold. ugh
hello there –– i’m glad you were reassured by the post. i feel like it’s important, now more than ever, to remind yourself that all of the people around you are also only human, including professors/TAs/students who seem like they are flawlessly smart. you are not alone. hang in there, kiddo.